I value personality but I feel like my secret obsession with lady parts would only make others either back away slowly or run to get away from me.
I know that being attracted to them is normal but this feels next level.
Some of the lewd content that I collect is mundane, but some of it is more abstract and involves photographs of furniture, jewellery, desserts, and other things in… “interesting” shapes. Additionally, I do graphic design in my spare time and I have made some unusual creations inspired by lady parts, including a virtual pinball table.
I feel guilty about my obsession, not because it’s sexual, but because it sounds disturbing. Also, I feel like I must be a shallow person who is not interesting for more than five minutes. I certainly have a few other interests, but this secret one is special to me.
Is this an instant turn-off that I should hide as much as possible? I’ve seen jokes ridiculing guys for being breast-obsessed but I am too socially awkward to tell if it is more the obsession itself or the apparent disinterest in both personality and meaningful relationships that turns people off.
Update: I’m surprised at how many comments this thread received and how many users wanted to see my pinball table! I restricted it to private messages partly because I assumed that NSFW images were forbidden here, and partly because I used numerous other artists’ assets without permission (I had not intended to publish it anyway).
That said, a moderator told me that I could share it provided that I marked the topic NSFW and I credited the artists whose work I used. I modified a small part of it based on one of your suggestions. Click here to see it!
Don’t worry too much about it is my take.
Yes, you’re almost certainly going to find people who are enherently discusted by that. I’ve met women who’d just say “…eww”. I’ve also met women who’d be like “bro saaame!” People vary in opinion, and I find it unlikely that if you were in a relationship with another girl they’d be the former (though I wouldn’t know because I’m a guy and never been in a relationship; someone else would have to chime in on this point).
I think it’s important to also consider why people look down on guys for being obsessed with tits&ass. Usually, the implication I get is that the issue is feeling like you’re being used for sexual gratification, not the emphasis on sexuality. An unsolicited DM praising your nipples doesn’t exactly make you feel like you’ve got good looking nipples. I think if you’re clear about not “using” their sexual characteristics and just like them in the same way you’d like flowers or whatever, then at that point most of the “weirdness” is that it’s non-sexual. Personally I find that to be more of a quirky kind of weird than a gross kind of weird.