Sorry I haven’t been posting here. I have soooo many family stories I wanna post but I’m too lazy to make an effort post.

Well its been a few months now so I’m just gonna post this here. First of all you should know my family particularly mothers side is INSANE. And insane in Pakistan, not just generally insane. This is the story of my mums aunts family.

There were two siblings. An older brother in his late 30s and a younger sister also in her 30s (mid 30s I think). Now last year the older brother died after his bike got trampled over by a truck in a police chase but that’s a story for another time. Today I wanna tell you about the sister.

So she got married and had 2 kids by now and surprisingly managed to get a divorce (it’s Pakistan, it was an arranged marriage and divorce ain’t easy for a woman to get). Now the father of the kids didn’t give much of a fuck about them and didn’t boher em much for 2 years after the divorce. But now (a lil over 2 years after divorce and a year post brothers death) the ex husband starts threatening her that he’ll take the daughters away. Now she is scared, alone, powerless and panicked. Her parents are old and in critical conditions. Women can’t work here. They are living off of basically no money. All they have for 4 people is the tiiiiiiny retirement fund of the father. Yes women basically can’t work.

So she was in a bad bad situation and one day we get a call and find out she’s in the hospital. Shocked, we ask what on earth had happened.

… She put rat poison in her and her daughters food. Both kids had died and the mother was in the ICU.

She has survived and I have no clue what is going to happen now. This is fucked up even for my family’s standards and I have no clue what to say about this. We went to the kids funeral and it was the saddest thing in the world. And not even for the reasons you think.

I heard one woman at the house complain about the catering. I heard many women gossiping about the family. I saw exaggerated fake outbursts from neighbours who never knew them. The funeral was as disgusting as anything I’ve seen. I lost hope in humanity and am happy I don’t live here anymore.

And guess what the story of the funeral is a common one here. I just think about the innocent 10 year old girls and wonder if there was a better life for them out there than their mother. In this country, in their financial and societal conditions, I expect not.