I never cared for gendered roles as a child but I distinctly remember how often I would get laughed at or pointed out as strange for it, or even pressured by other children and some adults. I also remember observing other children feeling miserable because they failed to be boy/girl enough in some activities, or that somehow I was the only one who could spend time with both girls and boys, other children in my school always stayed with their own gender, and always had weird talks about the opposite gender as if they couldn’t understand each other wich made no sense to me.

Because of that I managed to grow up with an early notion that gender is an ideal that doesn’t fully apply to anybody, regardless of how much they think it does, that it’s somekind of weird social norm. I was relieved when we studied it later in high school, while some of my classmates had their mind blown I was only thinking «okay it’s not some weird secret only I know» xD

But it’s only when I was 25 that a friend told me I must be agender, so yeah maybe I realised some things quite early in life but nothing was perfectly clear to me nonetheless.