I wanted to share a personal experience I’ve had with my roommate and close
friend, to see if anyone else has been through something similar or has advice
on how to handle this situation. It all started in 2023, when I entered college.
My friend (let’s call him “Alex”) and I became roommates from freshman year.
Alex is bisexual, although I didn’t know that at the time. We got along really
well from the start, and living together was pretty normal. Back then, I had a
girlfriend, and Alex always gave us space when we needed privacy in the room. My
girlfriend and I broke up. After that, the dynamic between Alex and I changed.
We spent a lot of time together in the room, and over time we became more
comfortable with our intimacy. There were a couple of times when we caught each
other masturbating, but instead of it being awkward, we talked about it and
normalized it. By the end of 2023, we were already so comfortable that we could
stand in our underwear in front of each other and even change clothes without
any problems. In 2024, things took a more intense turn. One night, after a
tiring day of studying, we decided to smoke weed. It was my first time doing it,
although Alex was already experienced. We were watching an episode of Game of
Thrones when suddenly, we ended up watching porn together. We started
masturbating at the same time, and at one point, Alex touched me and I touched
him. He ended up masturbating me until I came. The next day, we talked about it
and we both agreed that it wasn’t awkward, although it was a little weird. After
that, we started watching porn together more often, but without touching each
other. However, our senior year of college, we decided to become roommates
again. During that year, the dynamic intensified. We started masturbating each
other from time to time, and while it was sporadic at first, it eventually
became more frequent. After graduating, we decided to continue living together
to save on rent. That year, Alex confessed to me that he was bisexual, although
he clarified that he was not attracted to me. At the time, I felt a little
rejected, I don’t know why, but we talked about it and got over it. We decided
to do adult content together again, but this time more explicit. We recorded
videos of each other masturbating, and on one occasion, Alex gave me a blowjob.
While I enjoyed the experience, I still don’t consider myself gay or bisexual. I
don’t feel romantic or sexual attraction towards men in general, or Alex in
particular. He’s also made it clear that he’s not attracted to me, and we’ve
both set clear boundaries in our relationship. Now, in 2025, we still live
together and occasionally make content together, but always respecting our
boundaries. However, Alex recently made me a proposition that has me thinking.
He told me that we could do anal penetration content, and that he’d be willing
to have me fuck him. For me, that’s already a boundary I’m not sure I want to
cross. While I enjoy the dynamic we have, I feel like this could change things
between us. Has anyone else been in a similar situation? How do you guys handle
the line between friendship and physical intimacy? Do you think crossing this
boundary could affect our friendship in the long run? I appreciate any advice or
insight. Thanks for reading.
After what I told in my previous post, I decided to talk to Alex my friend and we had a long talk.
At first I was against having anal sex but we needed to record and make content, so he suggested that I could rub my member on his thighs and it wouldn’t be anal sex but it would be the same movements as if we were fucking standing up.
While I was doing it I had an intrusive thought about putting my cock in him and fucking him, but it was just that, a thought, it was the first time I thought about something gay sexual and it was at that moment with him.
I know that here they think I’m gay or bi, but the truth is that I don’t have fragile masculinity, and it’s something I couldn’t do if I didn’t have confidence with my friend and the money is worth it, I don’t like men neither romantically nor sexually.
It’s ugly to say it, but I’ll say it, I’m taking advantage of the comfort and trust of my bi best friend, just to have a good time without having to do days of work to receive something from a girl.
The next day, I was horny and I told him so, I told him I wanted to fuck him and he got everything ready right away, put the camera on to record, dilated himself with a dildo and I did my thing.
I don’t regret it, it was a good experience, but I’m not sure if it will happen again and I don’t know how to feel about myself.
I’m queer in whatever capacity you want to define. Fucking people as a top doesn’t feel right to me, regardless of gender. Maybe, like me, you’re more of a bottom.
