I enjoy writing software, but…
I’m sick of making yet another fucking CRM.
I’m sick of trying to keep data synced between seven different third-party services.
I’m sick of trying to pull everything in the database into a single fucking dashboard.
I’m sick of trying to stay within a budget that’s based on some wild-ass guesstimates made by someone who quit over a year ago.
I’m sick of creating things that will only ever be seen by a couple people in some random companies, and will be enjoyed by nobody.
If you want fulfilling work, join or start an open source project you’re passionate about
If you want money, grind Leetcode and go to a better company
But it sounds like you’re stuck between those two and yup it sucks