she/they
Bit of a mess, kinda depressed, and going through a gender identity crisis :3
(Ongoing issues, brain pls fix)
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CatLikeLemming@lemmy.blahaj.zoneto
Transfem@lemmy.blahaj.zone•A dilemma about losing fertilityEnglish
5·11 days agoI hope you don’t mind me asking, but on the topic of MTF SRS, are the “consequences” as bad as they’re made out to be? I’ve heard stories about having to dilate daily for years, surgeons not being able to agree on how to take care of it in the long run, leading to infections, and so on. It made me pretty cautious of it, even though I think it sounds pretty cool in theory.
CatLikeLemming@lemmy.blahaj.zoneto
Games@lemmy.world•When you're the type of person who commits. (xpost, because the Factorio joke inspired me)English
3·11 days agoNot Horus Heresy, but I’ve also been having fun with the Fabius Bile Omnibus by Josh Reynolds and The Night Lords Omnibus by Aaron Dembski-Bowden. In general, heretic novels, at least the ones I’ve read, have a higher quality on average than the loyalist ones. Xenos ones can be fun too, Infinite and Divine, Twice Dead King, Ghazghkull Thraka, and Brutal Kunnin’ were all fun. The best loyalist one I’ve found so far was The Fall of Cadia, but even that’s mostly just big good guy shoots big gun at big bad guy. Might as well read Ork books at that point, they’re at least having fun. Actually, that’s not quite right, The Great Work is also a good loyalist one, although I’d have preferred more Cawl and less Primaris Marines.
CatLikeLemming@lemmy.blahaj.zoneto
Greentext@sh.itjust.works•Anon wants to live on Super Earth
8·23 days agoFirst of all, there’s a big difference between “the good guys” and “not quite as horrible as all the others”. Second, T’au, Aeldari, and the Leagues of Votann exist. They all have their own flaws, there are literally no good guys, but overall they’re fine. If you compare the Imperium with the Drukhari or Chaos, yeah sure you can’t get much worse. But saying, even in the Warhammer 40k universe, that anyone who’s better than that are “the good guys” is absurd.
CatLikeLemming@lemmy.blahaj.zoneto
Technology@lemmy.world•Manjaro Linux Team Goes on Strike, Threatens to Fork the ProjectEnglish
1·25 days agoIs Garuda a serious distro? Last I heard it was basically a few people’s hobby project. Not to say one shouldn’t use it, but I don’t know if it’s on par with EOS and Cachy.
CatLikeLemming@lemmy.blahaj.zoneto
Linux@lemmy.ml•Systemd preparing to comply with age verification laws
1·27 days agoI’ll just assume you’re serious and not trying to be a troll. Those aren’t launchers or different clients for the same game, they are different games. It’s the same as how Tux Cart isn’t compatible with Mario Kart. It’s just not the same thing. You also wouldn’t assume a Teardown mod works in Minecraft, just because both are voxel-based, right?
There are open source Minecraft launchers like Prism, those are cool and useful, and frankly way better than the official one, but they use a Microsoft account too, as your ownership of the game has to be verified, and you can’t connect to servers without one.
CatLikeLemming@lemmy.blahaj.zoneto
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1·27 days agoHere’s the thing though: Assuming I adapted to the people around me, as I misinterpreted some things and built an identity around something that wasn’t quite right, losing that because it turns out I was “faking it”, would make me sad.
There are other pointers in that direction, like how when I feel subby, is when I most desire feeling fem, implying an internal connection between bottoming and femininity. But of course that an also simply be wanting to be cute, which is totally normal.
There’s many explanations both ways for things, so I always end up uncertain.
CatLikeLemming@lemmy.blahaj.zoneto
Linux@lemmy.ml•Systemd preparing to comply with age verification laws
4·27 days agoStripped down to the bare essentials, those are similar. But surely you realize, that the sheer amount of content that was added over the years, and the enormous amount of mods, and the entire community, aren’t remotely comparable, right?
This is less of a Photoshop for drawing vs Krita and more of a Photoshop for image editing vs GIMP situation, and even that comparison is kind of unfair to GIMP.
CatLikeLemming@lemmy.blahaj.zoneto
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9·27 days agoThere are a lot of people here saying they’re both, for me it’s a firm type two. Even in retrospect I can’t find any signs, because I can barely remember anything about my childhood in more than the broadest strokes.
My first “sign” I can remember was someone pointing me to r/egg_irl, and I’m still not sure if that was because I showed proper signs or just because I didn’t understand that guys can be bottoms too at that point. And for some reason, because of that, I’m still scared that I am somehow faking it to myself, because I saw an identity that partially matched and then adapted the rest, as I pretty much grew up in online transfem spaces and my dysphoria was never that extreme, almost always just a nagging at the back of my head. But it’s been over eight years at this point, so you know, it’s part of me either way at this point, and I doubt I could talk myself into something that lasts this long. Still sometimes a bit afraid of faking things though.
CatLikeLemming@lemmy.blahaj.zoneto
PC Gaming@lemmy.ca•‘This shouldn’t be normal’: developers speak out about bigotry on Steam, the world’s biggest PC gaming storefrontEnglish
6·2 months agoReminds me of when I saw a thread along the lines of “Can we get an option for a male character? I don’t feel immersed with a female character”. I really couldn’t tell if he was a troll or not. The most charitable reading would be that he also wouldn’t mind more female options in other games, which is absolutely possible, but somehow I doubt it.
CatLikeLemming@lemmy.blahaj.zoneto
Trailers for movies, television and games@lemmy.blahaj.zone•[meta] Disabling YouTube's auto-dub featureEnglish
1·2 months agoI think, for once, someone at YouTube actually thought it was a good idea for the users too. It’s like those websites that automatically change their language based on your IP instead of your browser setting. Some monolingual thought they were being nice.
Anyways, the reason it’s on by default is likely because people like us will know we hate it and turn it off. The average user who would like this, which is a good few I reckon, wouldn’t know to turn it on. It’s like videos defaulting to 720p or 480p. Many people literally won’t notice and it saves YouTube a lot of bandwidth. Meanwhile if you set it back manually a couple times, YouTube does it way less.
And my guess on the checkboxes is incompetence, not malice, the YouTube codebase is likely hellish.
CatLikeLemming@lemmy.blahaj.zoneto
Technology@lemmy.world•Discord Users Threaten Exodus Over Age Verification Face Scan ControversyEnglish
1·2 months agoThe problem is, even if I am willing to deal with some inconveniences, many others aren’t. How am I going to move a server with >100 active users and multiple thousand inactive ones? And what about the six others I have that fit that description? There’s quite a few servers I could go without, but around a dozen that I’d much prefer not to lose.
I’ve already been trying, but people don’t like Revolt, Nerimity, Matrix, hell I tried Mattermost. Some people are fine with some of these platforms, but there is never any remote consensus.
At least some have cancelled their nitro subscription, making them a net loss for Discord in the future.
Discord has, despite everything, been my primary chat/social app and to switch to something else one has to uproot absolutely everything. That’s sadly not feasible.
It isn’t even that. He is a horrible monster, but what makes him so appealing to me is that he is completely delusional about it. With his new men he genuinely sees himself as the saviour of humanity, despite the fact that his plan for his new men is to destroy and replace humanity. It’s almost like a tragedy, which I find very appealing.
That’s why heretic books like the Fabius Bile or Nightlords trilogy are great. Even authors who forget they should be writing villains on the loyalist side can remember that the traitors are evil. However, at least for those two trilogies, their authors also write them as likeable characters somehow. I would hardly call them anti-heroes, but they are understandable in their own messed up ways. It’s how I feel the loyalists should have been written.
CatLikeLemming@lemmy.blahaj.zoneto
Mildly Infuriating@lemmy.world•Nova Launcher unashamedly inserts malware ads into your home screen now.English
11·2 months agoLet’s try a metaphor. Say I have a bike. Someone’s trying to sell me another bike, based on it having two wheels, both compatible with standard tubes, and optionally having a luggage rack, if I bring my own and attach it. Then I would also be asking them what their bike actually does and why I should bother swapping mine out for theirs, because it just looks like an extremely standard bike. It doesn’t mean I do not know what a bike is.
The question about lawnchair specifically has mostly been answered by comments now, but the website still does a very poor job explaining what it does over any other launcher, especially compared to the stock one.
I probably delete 2/3 of my messages after I typed half of them out, because I either decide nobody cares, or because I could just upvote a comment which is pretty similar to what I would’ve written. Not sure if it’s the same for others, but I wouldn’t be too surprised.
CatLikeLemming@lemmy.blahaj.zoneto
Mildly Infuriating@lemmy.world•Nova Launcher unashamedly inserts malware ads into your home screen now.English
61·2 months agoSure, but what are those? Maybe I’m the issue, but the website seems to be made for people who are already intimately familiar with the possibilities of a custom launcher, because they’re hardly listed anywhere, there’s no list of features or anything.
Well, there is one list, but it’s
- “Pixel design, but more customizable somehow” How? Dunno, isn’t explained
- “The latest android features” which is cool but also something I have on my stock launcher
- “QuickSwitch support” which is not explained (some research makes me believe it’s API access to the default launcher that’s needed to show recent applications, which is also a feature my native launcher has) and needs root according to the FAQ. So can I not access my recent applications if my phone isn’t rooted?
And the wiki is just from the dev side, which is interesting, but doesn’t provide the proper info. I’m sure it’s cool if so many people here like it, but the website’s doing a poor job at showing that off.
Edit: Basically it seems to me like the selling points of most Android forks, which are generally “We’re slightly worse in some areas, but generally have feature-parity, possibly slightly better customization/settings, and you’re free of Google spyware” which is admittedly a selling point, but here you don’t even get rid of spyware if you’re on regular Android, and if you are already on a fork, then why bother?
CatLikeLemming@lemmy.blahaj.zoneto
Mildly Infuriating@lemmy.world•Nova Launcher unashamedly inserts malware ads into your home screen now.English
132·2 months agoI just checked out the website and I’m having a hard time understanding what the point of it is. I’ve never installed any sort of custom launcher, so maybe I’m missing out, but the application advertises itself on being very similar to the regular pixel launcher, not needing root access, and nothing else. Even in the FAQ I only see that it supports some plugin that upgrades some widget, unless you have root where it supports whatever you can do with the “recents api”. Neither of those seem remotely worth it. So what does it actually do?
CatLikeLemming@lemmy.blahaj.zoneto
Transfem@lemmy.blahaj.zone•How did you choose your names?English
5·3 months agoBorrowing it from fictional characters you like would be a rather common approach. Greek and roman goddesses, flowers, and gemstones are also normal. Otherwise, it’s reasonable to just open a baby name book/website and see what you like.
I’m still not sure why. For the corporate ones, like Hololive, I’m quite sure it’s just management driving it for audience engagement, at least on most of them. Lesbians are very fetishized by male audiences, so it appeals to them, while also keeping parasocial behaviour alive, as those men can imagine a relationship with the vtuber since there’s no boyfriend in the picture. Nonetheless, there’s a couple where I’m sure they’re pretty gay, Ollie and Kiara come to mind, and OkaKoro as a relationship seems genuine enough as well.
For more indie vtubers I do not know what’s going on with the queerness. It’s either faked like how I assume it is with most corpos or there’s some sort of selection bias. Maybe the type of woman likely to become a vtuber is also the type to have grown up in male online spaces, and assimilated some of the attraction to women during their puberty? That rough idea would track with male vtubers seeming pretty hetero overall, at least to me.
I’m just taking random guesses here, might just be talking absolute bs, I’m not sure.







I see, thanks for the response! The problems/consequences I was referring to were based on a post, I think even in this exact community, about someone who had bottom surgery and was having lots of trouble with it, from the hospital staff during the initial recovery being absolutely unfamiliar with it, to having to concoct their own cleaning solution to avoid infections and bad smells. It made me pretty concerned.