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Cake day: August 6th, 2024

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  • A few years ago I would have been strongly against it. But now I believe it’s a must. But it is easy to say we need an army of europe that will help with Ukraines defense when I wont me doing the military stuff. I would certainly not want to serve in an army. I am doing a year-long civil service to avoid the mandatory military service in switzerland. How many europeans are willing to serve to defend europe’s borders?






  • Crying in bed because I wasn’t a girl should have been a definite tell :) But it always went better at some point before it became impossible to hold back so I never sought help. My teens were loops of doubts, then certainty but too scared to talk.

    In my later adolescence I realised I (or started to) liked guys, and I was able to to feel better about being one. And I had a few adventures with guys as a guy which felt great and I thus believed that my trans phase had passed, for a few years.

    During that time I often described myself as “I don’t really care/I could be either, but people say I’m a guy so ok” but I still had a little (repressed?) desire to be seen as a girl. And I was weirdly emotional about being treated as a guy by laws that differentiate between men and women (military service/retirement age)

    Then I had to work as a kitchen assistant, mostly with women, and being treated as a non-woman by them felt really bad. (Previously I was in an environment that didn’t really feel gendered) And the outfit made me look vaguely feminine and I liked it and awoke my desires to be seen as a girl and experiment with clothing and nail polish.

    As I experimented, it completely shattered my egg, I slowly came out to friends, and 14 days ago, started HRT!