sappho [she/her]

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Cake day: July 26th, 2020

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  • Well, first of all, every morning my cat comes and sits on my chest and she’s very very soft. And there have been a few times in my life where I’ve gotten to feel this transcendent, infinite love that is greater than anything else I’ve ever felt. So I feel inside for the love in my own heart, or I look at my cat, or I look at kind people still trying - and then I can imagine that thing I felt before, the big love under everything, is real and true and still there. I don’t really understand yet how it is possible, given the suffering, but I imagine it anyway.



  • I get short of breath and feel like I’m going to faint after walking around too. For me it’s because I developed a circulatory disorder after getting COVID. The blood slowly pools in my lower body instead of being properly circulated back to my heart and upper body, thus causing shortness of breath (not enough oxygen) and lightheadedness (not enough blood to brain). The disorder is called POTS, it’s quite common to develop or worsen post-COVID, and on average it takes years to get a diagnosis because most doctors are not familiar, so I am compelled to mention it to you just in case it is helpful. You can screen yourself quite easily at home with something called the NASA lean test.