I go from “God is a kid with a magnifying glass” to “everything is as it is, and when I die that’s it, nothing happens afterwards”, with varying shades of agnosticism in between.

I still find churches (well, big ones made by people hundreds of years ago, not meeting halls) super chill. I visited a catholic shrine on my holidays last year and I found it really peaceful. I enjoy the “practice” of that aspect of religion in that respect. But I can’t square my experience of the world with anything other than an awful god who wouldn’t warrant any attention anyway.