Was latchkey kid with add.
I only move in predicability.
Work, relationships friendships all work because I can predict their behavior.
And hilariously enough I’ve gravitated into being a Dominant in a D/s relationship. Because if you can control it, you can predict it.
(It’s consensual)
Grew up teaching myself, except that my childhood was traumatic. Narcissists, drug users, abandonment, etc. Grew up expecting harm from others unless I gave them what they want. Also highly sensitive to the idea of fairness and perceived rejection (neurodivergence or trauma responses).
Service top. In control, but doing what others want. Needs reassurance and an expression of desire while in control of other people.
Partner selection is a pain in the ass.
Was latchkey kid with add. I only move in predicability. Work, relationships friendships all work because I can predict their behavior.
And hilariously enough I’ve gravitated into being a Dominant in a D/s relationship. Because if you can control it, you can predict it. (It’s consensual)
Also… Therapy kept me from being resentful.
Grew up teaching myself, except that my childhood was traumatic. Narcissists, drug users, abandonment, etc. Grew up expecting harm from others unless I gave them what they want. Also highly sensitive to the idea of fairness and perceived rejection (neurodivergence or trauma responses).
Service top. In control, but doing what others want. Needs reassurance and an expression of desire while in control of other people.
Partner selection is a pain in the ass.