So last time they asked how is my relationship with my parents when my mom was in the room… 🤦♂️ how was I supposed to honestly answer that lmfao…
So I told mom to leave…
So today she told me she want to be in the room with me from now on…
Because shes “worries” they will try to “trick” me into talking more which then “they would use as an excuse to overprescribe” dosage that is too high… or whatever
And she uses dad and the blood pressure thing as an example like she says: “everything was fine until [dad] mentioned ‘high blood pressure’ to the doctir and now the doctor is prescribing so much ‘unnecessary’ medications”
Also she’s kinda into Traditional Chinese Medicine…
Funny thing is the next appointment is virtual… so I guess I’m just gonna “forget” to remind her about it lol.
So yeah… that’s the story of my life
Like… before y’all yell “narcissist”… I do genuinely think there is a part of her that “cares” about me… but I feel like its a kinda twisted and weird way of “love”…
Like it comes with control, “mother knows it all” type of shit
I think I’m starting to understand the term “emeshment”…
Now I think I understand why China has a bunch of depressed people that are unemployed/don’t really feel motivated in life… (see: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tang_ping)
I doubt most people in China even seeks treatment for depression…
Why was I born into this culture? 😭
I’m so lucky to have emigrated… cuz How do young depressed people in China even deal with this shit? I mean with this shame culture… 🤔
(anyways feel free to ignore, just need a place to sort of vent)
Yeah she is overbearing it sounds like. The “perfect” thing would be to explain to her that there is topics you need to be alone with your therapist for. Of course it sounds like you don’t have the energy to do that, and your mom also might not understand.
What I’m trying to say that whole thing is not normal and both your mom and your therapist should be more professional and understanding of this.
I’m sorry you have to deal with all of this, but it will definitely get better. And of course all the things you feel make total sense given the situation you are finding yourself in.